no need to worry

so much has happened since i returned home from miami - in addition to that daughter leaving, my older daughter moved out - my son started his senior year and the baby went to HS - oh, and my husband had back surgery. needless to say i have not even recovered enough to manage a new blog post! but i did have one thing of note to report. i have been able to tell myself that this is not the time to worry if i am a productive, contributing writer. i will return to writing. i always have. today it is about being IN my life.

this idea is a pendulum swing for me. i dive deeply into my fiction and leave my family and friends in the dust. but slowly i leak out all that i have experienced until there is nothing much left to say. then life grabs hold and i forget that i ever even wrote. i dive into my family, cooking robustly, going out to lunch, planning vacations, buying new clothes, getting my toes done - in short i behave as though i live in my body. i know now that the time will come again when i forget - forget that the real world is not the imagined one in my head.

but until then, you should taste my eggplant parmesan!