in the dark

awaking in the night - no it was early morning, really - my mind racing, i find so many things to worry and wonder about. thought upon thought pile up in the corner of my mind like a mound of careful laundry. i shut my eyes to the pain of not knowing and try to sleep, but the pile only rises. soon the alarm rings and i head into the kitchen in the dark to make brown-bag lunches for the family and coffee for myself.